Sunday, April 10, 2011

She's Here

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Originally uploaded by Houzvicka
Well she has arrived. 19 hours of labor (me sitting), and 2 1/2 pushes a new beautiful little girl has arrived into the world. Could I even try to describe how or what I feel. Not in a million years. There are no words I know that can do it justice. Love is the closest word I know but it in itself does not describe the feelings or the emotions that run through your mind. Among those feeling are worry, excitement,  optimism and wonder. Worry everyday with hows shes doing, excitement in what is to come , optimistic about what she can become and wonder at the path life will take from here on. Now for the facts, shes was born at 12:21 pm 6 lbs 15 oz at 20 inches long. The picture to the right was taken her first week home. As of today she is an infant because her cord has fallen off 2 days ago and every day she gets more amazing. It may be the sleep deprivation that makes the simplest things seem so neat and cool, but I don't think so. I think it is the amazement that 43 weeks ago she was microscopic with only 2 cells total that divided perfectly to create a living breathing human. A little girl that is half of me and half of her mother. One hopes the best half of both. Time will tell and everyday the future we look forward to her will change every so slightly into the person she decides to become, the human with all the rest of the world changing around her that she choose or it helps create her to be. I look forward to watching every moment optimistic towards the world and the ability and determination she decides to put towards it.